Answering The Call Of God
Article by Vanessa Richardson
Who would call a damaged person for an assignment? Especially when they didn’t want to do it. What if that person, didn’t ask for it? Dropping to my knees, I cried aloud. “Lord, I do not understand!” Self-doubt consumed me, deeper I sunk into the vortex of disparity. Time passed, how long, I may never truly know. Shaking finally, I stood to my feet.
Instincts warned me to answer the summons, but I was afraid to do so. I knew if answered God’s call on my life, I would no longer be the same. It was the battle between my flesh and spirit. This ancient battle of the flesh and spirit, also belief over no belief. Many believers have fought –and still are fighting– between the natural and spiritual realm. The winning outcome is contingent on the believer’s faith. With the passage of time I’d intentionally stopped keeping score on who was winning this battle. It was just too heavy a load to carry. I felt the pulling again. I wanted to scream out in frustration. Doubt’s insidious hold had claimed me. I immediately tried to fight its claim on my life. I knew that if I accepting God’s calling’ I would forever be tied to the altar.
“Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worked in us” (Ephesians 3:20). I clung to those inspiring words; as if they were my lifeline. In truth, they were. While chanting it over and over, I began to remember; what God had done for me. He saved me. Forgiven me. Touched me. Delivered me. Healed me. Loved me. I had a breakthrough –as Jesus did in The Garden of Gethsemane. The Bible reveals that Jesus was heavy of heart because of the assignment given him; that he literally cried blood of tears! Now that is hurt on the highest of levels. When I accepted God’s calling; something inside me changed, with the acceptance of my calling.
The empty feeling I had moments ago dissipated, replaced by determination. Fortifying myself, I stopped running from my purpose. Right there, I answered my calling. It is time to stand still and deal with your calling. God has called you for quite some time now. Understand that He never leaves us, no matter how seemingly appears. Jesus asks three of his strongest disciples to watch and pray with him for one hour at His greatest time of need. This is a man who lived a young 33 years. Jesus Christ was born to die — not for him, but for that of the world. Jesus poured out so much of himself and yet no one could help him. He asked Peter, James, and John to go with Him into the garden. He asked them to wait while he went to pray. In the end Jesus stood tall as he accepted his major calling. His calling: To die on the cross so that souls may be saved. More, the flesh will try to hold you back –but don’t allow it to do so. Don’t put all your trust in man, but place it all in God. He will never fail you, ever.
When Jesus finally broke through, he didn’t become bitter, in fact in released his hurt and disappointment. You may be in a dark place right now, but don’t give up. You will begin to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It may be small at first, keep believing, keep walking forward, the light will begin to grow brighter and brighter, swallowing up the darkness! You are much closer than you think. Just don’t give up. This is my prayer for you. To The Certain Ones. Let’s go get it!
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