Posted by in Inspirational Short Story | 0 Comments

Round Table Discussion


She moved deftly around her spacious kitchen like a graceful dancer. A small smile gracing her seasoned face. Granny was preparing tonight’s dinner. Although she lived alone she always cooked healthy servings; as she never lacked for company. Her children or grandchildren never failed to put in an attendance to her home. Some would stay over for several nights. She didn’t mind this; in fact she utterly adored it. It gave her a sense of purpose. It was rewarding being able to feed and catch up on current events in the lives of her babies’. She called them her round table discussions. There is something to be said about healthy food and good conversation; it rejuvenates the soul. She loved all her babies including their pet dogs and cats. hey were a family. Family and faith were the foundation she stood on. Material things were fleeting.

“Hey Grandma,” the sound of her granddaughter’s voice made her pause. So begins the first round table discussion. Granny offered up a small prayer for guidance and continued to knead her sourdough homemade bread. Granny offered up a small prayer of guidance and continued to knead her sourdough homemade bread. Behind her she heard her refrigerator open. But remained silence. When you lived since she had she had; you’re able to discern a person’s mood. Right now her grand baby was in a dour mood. The octogenarian began humming an old-time tune under her breath all the while kneading her dough.

Veronica kissed her grandmother on the cheek. She snagged an apple from the fruit tray; and stood watching her grandmother do her culinary magic in the kitchen. “You’re making sourdough bread. Delicious! My favorite.” Grandma looked up and smiled, still humming. Veronica watched her grandmother kneading the dough into her desired formation. Granny made three short thick loaves; turning she placed them in the oven. She moved on to her next of peeling white potatoes. She sat down with a heavy sigh. “I have to lose me some weight, baby. My knees aren’t like they use to be. I use to stand for hours on end without feeling any type of aches.” Veronica silently seated herself next to her grandmother.

Her granny was 125 pounds soak and weight. “You don’t need to lose any weight, granny. You are perfect the way you are.” Granny wisely eyed her grand and smiled. Veronica silently joined her granny in peeling the white potatoes. The two working in comfortable silence. Veronica tilted her head, sighing loudly. Granny lifted one eye brow but remained silent. It wasn’t long before Veronica finally spoke. Swallowing hard Veronica raked a hand through her mico braids in frustration. “Grandma, I have been feeling funny lately. I cannot describe how I feel exactly.” She said absently. “I wake up in the morning with this feeling and lie down at night with this feeling.” Her large doe eyes filled with tears. “I feel nasty on the inside.” Grandma’s heart stilled for several seconds. Veronica’s choice words were forming many scenarios in her mind. Experience taught her to never jump to conclusions. Patience was not born or inherited. It was a disciplined act, one must work at it. So she waited and was soon rewarded for her patience.

Veronica stirred, pushing at her small micro braids. She closed her eyes trying to formulate the words in her heart. Tears began coursing down her cheeks. “I need help. I cannot think straight. It is a chore for me to get up in the morning. Of late I have asked myself, why I am here? What is the purpose of my existence?” She bowed her head down. “I feel nasty on the inside.” Veronica looked up at her Grandmother and shook her head. Her Granny continued to hum softly. “Something is out-of-order, my little angel of the field,” Granny never looked up. She continued peeling the layers off the potatoes. Veronica rested her forehead on the table. “I know. I feel there is something I should be doing, but I don’t know what. It is as if life is passing me by.” She closed her eyes and swallowed. She felt lost and confused. “Grandma, I am 29 years old. I had–have so many goals and it seems that none of them has come to fruition. The more I try; it seems the more I tend to get knocked down. It is too much.”

Granny smiled. “You see Veronica human beings are design rather uniquely and if something on the inside is out-of-order it throws us all off track.” Grandma arrested Veronica’s eyes. “You got to get to cause of the matter. That requires dealing with our situations.” Granny paused. “The good and the bad ones,” The potatoes were now peeled. Grandma began to cut them up into small chunks. “I don’t feel like I am good enough, granny. I want this nasty feeling to go away. It clings to me like spiders clings to its web. What do I do?” Veronica leaned in close eager to hear her granny’s sage advice. Her grandmother flashed a smile at her.

“We have layers in our lives that need peeling away. Hurt, rejections fear and doubts make for a nasty recipe. Nasty. There is a root to everything. We need to get to it. The good water it. The bad. Get rid of it.” Veronica averted her eyes somehow feeling chastised. She was not ready to deal with her issue. It was too painful. She was tired of the nastiness. She wanted to feel like she belonged. She wanted to live not exist. In her mind she knew her granny was right. It was her heart that was rebelling as she had been hurt too many times. “It is a nasty feeling being weighted down by negative things. You know what the sad thing about it is?” Grandma scoffed, hitting the table hard with one hand. “We do not have to keep that nasty feeling. Baby, happiness is a choice we make. You just have to make hot pursuit. Go after it.” Grandma began to pick up speed as peeled the potatoes. “If you want something bad enough you go after it. No pain no gain. Failure is nasty. Doubt is nasty. Confusion is nasty. All those layers must be peeled away. No one and nothing has the power to make you feel…nasty.” Her grandmother smiled stood up placing the potato chunks into the boiling water. “I have made meals for many years now. I know the process each meal goes through. If I deviate from the ingredients, I know the outcome would be different. Creation takes a plan and processing. The process is well worth the results.” She went to the oven and pulled out the sourdough bread.”

The three loaves where perfectly golden brown, the smell aromatic. “You’re feeling the heat now Veronica. You have the ingredients to be successful. Faith and family. Prepare your master piece. If it is ruined try it again, until it comes out just right.” Veronica stood up and hugged her granny. “Thank you, grandma. I know what you are telling me. I am sorry, I cannot stay for dinner I have something– I need to get started on.” She broke off a huge chunk of sourdough bread, smiling at her granny she turned and left.” “I have a feeling everything is going to be all right.” Granny started humming again. “Hey, grandma.” The voice sounded weak. She did not turn around. It was her grandson Oscar, from the sound of things; he was in a bad way. She smiled, offering up a prayer of thanksgiving. It was good being needed. She began humming; waiting for her grandson to start their discussion.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

You may use these HTML tags and attributes: <a href="" title=""> <abbr title=""> <acronym title=""> <b> <blockquote cite=""> <cite> <code> <del datetime=""> <em> <i> <q cite=""> <strike> <strong>